Hmmmmmmm

Ok here goes.
We just found out the Grande Java's cousins wife passed last night. She had been fighting brain cancer for a long time.
Grande Java told his mom that he would TRY to take off of work so WE could all go up but if not I would come with the KIDS.
Does that mean I take the kids to the funeral or get a friend to watch them? I think he should go-not try to come with us.
Tomorrow is Blue Java's birthday. IT will be his first birthday ever that both Grande and I will be at work. Needless to say he is pretty upset, which breaks my heart but it is difficult to take time off when I only work once a week.
So with that being said I am tired of taking on the sad stuff alone. I am greatful that I get to stay home with the kids and witness the joy but the sad stuff stinks.
The last funeral Grande and I attended together was for my mom. The last four I have been solo, representing our family. I have also attended weddings solo over the years to have him meet me at the reception if he can.