Stressed

I am stressed.
The business that Grande Java is in has picked up but I think ten months of changing our lifestyle is starting to take it's toll on the whole family.
It is truly times like these when I realize I don't have parents or aunts and uncles checking in.
I rely on my friends to keep me grounded.

Progress

Blue Java is reading a novel a week. We both love to read.
He is reading the children's version of Marley and Me. I think it's My Dog Marley.
I am reading Handle with Care by Jodi Picoult this week. It is good but making me have strange dreams.
I went to the gym today-yeah.
Petite Java loves Barbar School(VBS) and has memorized most of the songs. Her loud voice has been addressed daily. I am hoping my friend will gently remind the teacher that this is her normal tone and her loud voice is insane.

Things you pay monthly but don't really get your moneys worth

Birth Control-When you break it down you pay a daily rate --need I say more.

Gym Membership-So last month I gave money to the gym. SO far this month I have used it once. That's one expensive class.
I will try to go at least three times this week. 2 to go.

Hmmmmmmm

Ok here goes.
We just found out the Grande Java's cousins wife passed last night. She had been fighting brain cancer for a long time.
Grande Java told his mom that he would TRY to take off of work so WE could all go up but if not I would come with the KIDS.
Does that mean I take the kids to the funeral or get a friend to watch them? I think he should go-not try to come with us.
Tomorrow is Blue Java's birthday. IT will be his first birthday ever that both Grande and I will be at work. Needless to say he is pretty upset, which breaks my heart but it is difficult to take time off when I only work once a week.
So with that being said I am tired of taking on the sad stuff alone. I am greatful that I get to stay home with the kids and witness the joy but the sad stuff stinks.
The last funeral Grande and I attended together was for my mom. The last four I have been solo, representing our family. I have also attended weddings solo over the years to have him meet me at the reception if he can.

I wish I were organized

I can not find a very important perscription.
It is very important.
I am supposed to take it daily, however it has been missing for two days.
Great. Just Great.